December 2009
leah
so go on skype, and we’ll chat, but not with voices
Ugh. Why am I crying?
woaah:
I’ve had a ridiculous few days and I just want to go to sleep but I can’t. I’ll spend hours just thinking about things. Its struck me how much of a failure I’ve been to everyone and myself..especially my family. I feel like shit and I just wanna get out of here tbh. I want to phone my dad at work because I’m scared I’m gonna do something stupid. idk. He wouldn’t be able to do anything...
leah you me msn
i feel on the verge of giving up and succubing to my old ways
if someone could make the illusion that i’m not completley alone, i’d really appreciate it
i'd love you to imagine what i feel
i just got back from the sea.
i spent christmas day alone in a small hotel room, no friends, no family
i got yelled at for trying to cheer up my host sister
i got yelled at for being up late
i got yelled at for absolutely nothing
and i just feel sdkhlakdjlaf
and i wish someone would understand
and that i can be strong enough to pull through
flamingowl/leah
check your emails already!
leah
flamingowl:
petithibou:
why didnt you tell me that tropicana died! i just felt a pang of grief, that fish was part of what made the kitchen like home
Tropicana didn’t end up dying. I thought he was going and flipping over, then i went to bed. When I woke up, he was swimming around just fine ahahaa. sorry about the misconception..
scared me bad there. in in september on your blog now
leah
why didnt you tell me that tropicana died! i just felt a pang of grief, that fish was part of what made the kitchen like home
hannah
i’m a little tumbr stupid, so i dont know how to answer back my own question
but definitely, we should get together
i’m like ripping at the seams, i’m sure you know what i mean. and i wish i could be strong enough to just take it and go as i always did, but i just want to explode.
advice time
so, i have many questions pressing on my mind, and i’m just tired of keeping it in. i’ll regret this tomorrow i bet though.
main thing though, who do you go to when theres no one. not a single person in the continent (not an exaggeration here) who you can comfortable tell your life to, your problems to, your hopes to, your feelings to, and not feel judged, like a burden. who do you...
i’m bored, i’m lonely, and i just found a big bowl of chocolates. help?
ah bon
bon: il n’y avait pas ecole aujourd’hui, cause de neige. j’ai parle avec mes amies un peu plus ce matin. j’ai fais un bonhomme de neige avc ma petit soeur d’accueil
pas bon: j’ai fais un gateau, et il y a personne a le mange avec. qui veut du gateau, et parler un peu? parce que je suis tout seul
LEAHHHHHHH
noooooo. dont do it! he tried on me, he tried on danielle, he tried on erin,…he just wants some girl. and ask erin about it, she fill in. but good god leah, think about it.
Megan,
flamingowl:
i see you actually go on the computer sometimes….?
its late for me, but msn it, make this seem all cool and private and not taking up space on my wall of happy thoughts
HANNAHCERENE
everythings going to be fine, i promise
i love you
please take care, i want you to have an amazing time of your holidays
and of course to feel cheery
